Thanks to my brother Sam Williamson from Beliefs of the Heart for this awesome answer to a comment I made on his blog in response to an excellent article he wrote about The Hard Edge Of Good News. It’s a worthy read as is everything I’ve read that Sam has wrote. Sam you’re a blessing to me. God bless! Russ
Sam wrote :
John Newton, converted slave trader and author of Amazing Grace, wrote a poem called, These Inward Trials. It begins:
I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith, and love, and every grace;
Might more of His salvation know,
And seek, more earnestly, His face.
I hoped that in some favored hour,
At once He’d answer my request;
And by His love’s constraining pow’r,
Subdue my sins, and give me rest.
[Pretty good prayer, right? Then he says,]
Instead of this, He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart;
And let the angry pow’rs of hell
Assault my soul in every part.
Yea more, with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe;
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Blasted my gourds, and laid me low.
[God is doing something he doesn’t understand! But the poem ends with grace and hope.]
Lord, why is this, I trembling cried,
Wilt thou pursue thy worm to death?
“’Tis in this way, the Lord replied,
I answer prayer for grace and faith.
These inward trials I employ,
From self, and pride, to set thee free;
And break thy schemes of earthly joy,
That thou may’st find thy all in Me.”
That’s what we want–to find our all in Him–but the road is often rocky.